You can experience vision quests with each specific transmitter, working with its spirit, and learning more of how it works. If you visit http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neurotransmitters, you'll be able to get detailed information on the different neurotransmitters and what they do. You can then invoke yourself into the neurotransmitter and get a closer feel for what it does by embodying your consciousness in it and journeying with it as it goes through your body. The neurotransmitter acts as a spirit guide, showing you how it affects your body. Remember that the transmitter has it own consciousness that you are interacting with. That interaction will likely not occur in a manner that we think as conventional communication. For me, the sensations have been tactile and are the effects the transmitter has on the body. In other words, I am feeling how the neurotransmitter interacts with the body to produce effects. We must always remember that our conception of consciousness is biased by our own consciousness. Anything else, including a cell, will likely have a different concept of consciousness from our own. Keep yourself open to this idea and working with the neurotransmitters as spirit guides will be easier.

Using the meditation technique I mentioned above or a different form, the goal should be to contact the neurotransmitter of your choice. I will usually say: "I invoke myself into [name of neurotransmitter]", or simply allow my consciousness to merge into the neurotransmitter, much the same as with the blood cell example above. When I dive into my brain, in a blood cell, I perceive it as a vision quest, a journey I'm taking into the brain to find the spirit guide which represents the neurotransmitter. When I meet that spirit guide, it usually picks a symbolic form that is appropriate to it and to my perception of it. The spirit guide for dopamine, for instance, was an old man, while the spirit guide for serotonin was a six eyed snake with three eyes on each side. The archetypal appearance of these spirit guides enables you to work with the neurotransmitters on a level of consciousness that you can approach. We think in symbols and our conception of the world is mediated by them. I focus on traveling in the cave of brain flesh (which is how I perceive the environment I'm questing in). While questing in this meditative state, I focus on the specific neurotransmitter and its unique energy. I'll vibrate its name, calling for it to appear in my meditation. When it does appear, it assumes a form I can relate to. I've noted that the first connection with a given neurotransmitter can take up to a week to occur or happen the very first time you focus on finding it.

Once I've made contact with the neurotransmitter of choice, I'll ask for a symbol from it. This symbol represents a contact point, making it easier to connect with the neurotransmitter. I draw on the alphabet of desire as the technique to use for the symbolism:

The 'alphabet of desire' is Spare's name for the collection of symbols or 'sacred letters' (actually an ideograph) that every sorcerer who persists in the method must eventually design. Each 'letter' represents a power…an unconscious structure or a variety of energy that the sorcerer recognizes of wishes to recognize within his deep psyche. The letter acts as a way of designating the nature of this force even while one's rational mind is left in the dark. By encouraging his deep psyche to design this alphabet, the wizard creates his own personal system of symbols, compact images he can use to call up the power to change the consciousness or charge his sigils. (Mace 1984, p. 34)

As Mace mentions above, each symbol represents the power that you are contacting. In this case we are contacting the consciousness of each neurotransmitter and getting a symbol from it that acts not only as its representation, but also as a key to working with it. And we can work with the neurotransmitters to change our consciousness.

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